Alice – In search of Wonderland

Sunday, June 22, 2008

dykes everywhere!

Filed under: chicks,gay,lesbian,life,party,tokyo — Alice @ 12:22 pm
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Back in my hometown I drag my best friend to the gayest club in town. We start of with a glass of wine each and end up spending more time sitting at a table with a bunch of very young dykes than on the dance floor. One of them is a bit cooler than the others. An etchnic chic with a piercing through her lip. She’s flirty but she keeps dissapearing. When she reappears for the umpteenth time she sits her jeaned but down next to me and, drunk as we both are we kind of fall in to a hug. I smile and tell her I’ve missed her and she kisses me on the side of my still smiling mouth. Which leads to a make-out-session. Mmm… soft lips.

If she hadn’t been living with her parents I’d follow her home (since I’m here visiting mine as well). Unfortunately we’re not in a Tokyo full of love hotels. The fact that she’s only 18 doesn’t really bother me, but I feel the need to tease her about it anyways. “Has anyone ever told you you’re insanely cute?” she asks, and no, no one has ever used that phrasing actually… And then we part ways in the night. Best friend was probably a little bit surprised, but she’s the only one I’ve told that I actually slept with a girl when I was in Tokyo… She handled herself splendidly anyways. Gotta love her.

It was a fun night, but the memory of those kisses doesn’t really reverb like the one electic kiss I shared with Curly. Not that I’m really in to him, but kissing a girl is mostly very… “…so?” Feels completely natural and not as electric, if you know what I mean… Or maybe it was just this girl.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

macho me

Filed under: alcohol,chicks,gay,life — Alice @ 8:53 am
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Why, oh, why do I have to get all macho when I’m drinking in a crowd? I seriously have some sort of macho-complex that makes me say and do things that the reptile part of my brain probably thinks is going to impress people. Last night I got in to a discussion with Texas, a sweet, but sometimes really annoying Texan, about Bangs, a girl that I’ve worked with, that I have so much respect for, saying that she was way out of his league and that I was more likely to get her if we were to fight for her. 

It was definitely in a jokingly manner, but her best friend was sitting right there when Texas said “But she’s not really a lesbian, she’s bisexual!” and I was like “Whaddaya mean she’s not a lesbian? She’s got a girlfriend! Although I can totally see that she could be bi… Hmm.” At which point her friend probably felt the need to butt in and advise us that Bangs’ her best friend and that she was with a guy when she realized that she was in fact a lesbian… 

I wonder just how uncomfortable we made her feel talking about her friend like that? I wouldn’t care if it wasn’t for the fact that I adore Bangs. She’s the most righteous chick ever and I wish I hadn’t gotten in to a duel of the words about who would get her and whether she was actually a lesbian or not with Texas. 

Note to self: 

Stay away from macho guys when you’re drunk. They make you behave weird.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Introducing: Skinny

Filed under: chicks,food,life,Uncategorized — Alice @ 6:05 pm
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“I’m not eating this week. I have to get rid of this” she says and grabs the back of her left thigh. I look upon her, a very thin japanese chick with perfect hair. We’ve had this conversation before. Even though she’s one of the skinniest people I know, all she sees is her thighs. 

I laugh and tell her that you actually need to eat to live. Then I take her home and make her a soup that will make her full, but not fat and try to explain what you should think about if you’re trying to lose weight. I’m beyond trying to tell her that she’d look really scary if she lost more weight, instead I just giver her tips about what she can eat. But everytime we’re on this subject I die a little. I know I can never tell her what to do or judge her, so I just laugh and hope I’m not being too much of an enabler.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

cupcake

Filed under: chicks,gay,life,love — Alice @ 8:51 pm
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Rocker Chick calls me to see if I’m free to hang out. I’m unfortunately busy, and when I call her up, almost two hours later she’s already at home and feeling a bit under the weather, apparently.

I feel stupid for a second or two, but how am I supposed to know she’d call me out of the blue, wanting to meet up immediately? I suppose I could’ve left my schedule clear, but then I realize that that would make me Rocker Chicks bitch. It’s too bad though, I haven’t seen her since that night at the club when we were both really drunk, and I was kinda looking forward to seeing how we’d interract. Man, I just got a flashback. She’s so cute. (I want her!)

I’m gonna have to invite her to come stay with me for a weekend. I wonder if she’d dare to come?

Maybe tomorrow, if she’s still isn’t feeling good, I could stop by her place with some cupcakes or something, before I hop on a bus to go back to my “other home” to make up for the fact that I’m so popular I didn’t have time for her when she called.

let’s hang out at my mom’s

Filed under: chicks,gay,life,love — Alice @ 12:25 pm
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I didn’t see Rocker Chick yesterday after all. I’m thinking I should invite her to come visit me soon. We could go to that lesbian club that I’ve been wanting to go to ever since I moved to my latest “home”, but haven’t had the courage to visit on my own. Well see what happens…

Meanwhile I saved Turtle from fatigue yesterday when his flatmate was being totally depressed and depressing by inviting him to hang out at my moms. He ended up spending the night. I wonder what kind of relationship my mom thinks we have… 

And Tinkerbell is off the list. She’s still cute as hell and I respect her a lot, cause she’s the only one in my department that works her ass off, which is something I really admire, but she has a boyfriend. He’s in Australia at the moment, but a boyfriend nevertheless. And I might be crazy enough to chase after chicks that aren’t really gay, but I’m not crazy enough to chase after chicks that are in heterosexual relationships and that I also work with. 

Saturday, April 5, 2008

relax

Filed under: chicks,life,love — Alice @ 10:52 am
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I’m meeting Rocker Chick, either tonight to go out for drinks, and maybe trying to sneak her away to a gay club where we can make out without raising any straight eyebrows, or tomorrow for coffe. I’m kind of ambivalent as to how I should act around her. Friendly, but not too friendly maybe?

It’s not like I’m in love with her and in my opinion, anything less than love shouldn’t be treated too seriously. I just wish everyone else would realize that and let loose a little bit. Dating shouldn’t have to be a deadly serious thing.

adore me

Filed under: chicks,gay,life,love — Alice @ 12:49 am
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I just had a chat with two ladies about men and their lack of capability to grasp that a woman is in to them. One of them, Ozzy, is apparently trying to get a guy to understand that she want to spend some time with him without a bunch of friends loitering about. She’s not sure if he’s in to her, which complicates things a little, but me and this other girl are giving her complete opposite advice. “Call him!” “Don’t call him!” “Tell him how you feel!” “Trick him in to going with you on a non-date!” And while we’re talking and debating I realize that I’ve barely had this problem at all. The men (and women) I’ve been involved with (except for my very first boyfriend) have all adored me. They’ve looked at me with complete facination and awe. And I have played my part well in keeping up the charade. Alice – the intriguing woman.

 

And now as I’m thinking about Rocker Chick and my half-assed attempt to get her to understand that she should date me, I realize that this is the first time I’m thinking about attempting a chase where the victim in question is not already on the hook, so to speak. Althought, she did say that if she were to sleep with a girl she’d definitely sleep with me, and later the same evening her answer to my question: “So when are we gonna sleep together, ey?” was not a bothered look and an attempt to change the subject, but simply ” have my period…”

What do you think, folks? Do I have a chance?

 

Monday, March 24, 2008

hey, I AM the gay club!

Filed under: alcohol,chicks,gay,life,party — Alice @ 10:30 pm
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Despite not going to a gay club at all, I still get some chick-action. The chick, Rocker chick, is one I’ve fooled around with before. We’ve been friends for three or so years, and I’m not sure how it started, but I think I dragged her to a club once (same one as we were in this Saturday if I remember correctly) and told her that I’d make out with her before the night was over. As I recall, it was a bit awkward since she wouldn’t stop giggling, and after one more attempt, where I kinda groped her, and her still giggling, I kinda gave it up.But this time we were doing liquorice shots all night, and when I saw she had liquorice at the corner of her mouth I couldn’t resist licking it off. And her reply was a raised eyebrow and an: “Oh, you think you can get away with that?!” And then the game was on. 

I should be ashamed of myself, taking advantage of a drunken girl like that, and had I not though she enjoyed it as much as I did, I just might have been. Besides, she’s just so tiny and cute with her rocker attitude, I swear I could just eat her up! Maybe I should invite her to come sleep… er, I mean stay with me for a weekend in my other town, and see what happens?

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

gay clubbing close to home

Filed under: chicks,gay — Alice @ 8:27 pm
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I’m going back to my hometown over Easter. Was thinking I might go to the gay club. Last time I was there was many years ago, when I was in a relationship with a guy, but I remember watching a couple of girls make out on the dancefloor as if they were about to devour each-other with a look of endearment and a tinge of envy.

The only thing is that one of the former (?) owners (I don’t know if he’s moved on by now) is a friend of my family. And I’m afraid if I find someone to make out with word is gonna spread in the circles my mom travels in, and I’d hate for her to hear rumours about me and what I do from close-minded people who don’t know their ass from their face.Or maybe I just don’t care and go anyways.    

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

the lack of excitement makes me gay!

Filed under: chicks,life,love — Alice @ 5:51 pm
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On my way home from work today I got that… you know that feeling that your chest kind of cramps up in excitement? Except I had nothing to be excited about.  The only thing I’ve got going for me right now is that I really like my job, and that my family isn’t too far away. But other than that, I have no life. See, I have no parter in crime for the first time in a long time. No boyfriend, no allies, no high school-like conviction of “It’s us against the world.” Right now it’s just me. Against the world.

Now I know you might be thinking: “Isn’t that a tad dramatical?” and truthfully, yes. Yes indeed it is! But what the hell’s a girl to do when her life bores her increadibly? I’m not asking to fall in love or anything, in fact, I’m asking to be left the hell out of those sort of emotions and arrangements, but what does a girl have to do to get some sweet ass around here? I mean, come on…

Now, the boys are so-so cute, but most of the girls here look like they’re freakin’ edible! Mmm, girls.

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